Cicero’s notebooks:
Transcendentally discontent. Transcendental hatred – for this life. For the conditions of this life.
Transcendental world-disgust. Transcendental life-disgust. Transcendental horror at it all. The beginning of philosophy.
Philosophy’s gone wrong inside you. Philosophy’s festering.
There’s a … horrific vision. And that’s important. Creation stripped to the bone. Naked facticity.
God isn’t revealed through the world. God and the world: completely antagonistic.
End times? Come and gone. This is the afterlife. Or the afterdeath.
Nihilize the world. The whole creaturely realm. There’s a use for disenchantment.
What creatureliness shows us. The worst the world, the greater the chance for redemption.
Everything has to sink to the lowest level. The world has to be shown as being perfect guilty, perfectly culpable (Benjamin). As being worthy only of being destroyed (Scholem). The redemption needs dread and ruin.
‘When you have sunk to the lowest level, at that time I will redeem you’.
Natural beauty: the problem. Do not be seduced by the sea or the sunset. Unless we can see natural beauty as sheer horror. See the world as a meaningless void. The void of God that’s what we have to know. The world as the void of God.
The whole of creation has to be allowed to fall into the night. The deepest nihilistic fall of the world: that’s what we need to know.
God’s withdrawal from the world has to be complete. And that will be revelation: a new form of revelation.
A new faith … which is made from doubt and disbelief. Which creates itself out of nothing – the divine nothing. God has to spring anew from his nothingness.
We have to reach perfect hopelessness. De profundis.
Complete nihilism. Perfect it.
The perfect nihilist can see that the world lacks nothing. That it’s self-enclosed. Integral. Full as it is. But what it lacks is nothing. What it lacks … is what it’s not.
Work in Progress 