What if we’re supposed to think this is the apocalypse? What if that’s the true apocalypse: that we’re supposed to think it’s the apocalypse? What if we’re actually going to be okay?
We thought the apocalypse frees us from the world, this world. We thought the apocalypse would shatter open the world. Destroy the world. But really, the apocalypse is a technique of this world, a ruse of this world. It’s how they keep their world going.
I’ve spent my whole life waiting for the world to collapse. And it doesn’t collapse.
Yes, but it’s going to collapse.
I don’t make any long term plans, nothing. I don’t think about the future, because I don’t believe there’s going to be a future.
So there’s no future?
There’s a future of no future. Just loads of crises. Just World War Three and so on.
The collapse, in other words.
*We have to free ourselves from addiction to the end. From apocalyptic fantasies.
That’s going to be difficult. I’m largely apocalyptic fantasies.
It’s a swizz – don’t you see? We’re supposed to think like this, believe like this. It’s what replaces religion. It just becomes faith in some contentless end. Faith in some explosion.
We have apocalyptic temperaments. Or at least I do. It’s what we’ve been trained for. From birth. We’ve been brought up to basically panic – permanently To live in a perpetual state of emergency.
They want us panicked. They want us trembling in fear.
Who’s they?
The powers that shouldn’t be, right? We have to find a way to live. It’s not just about thought. It’s about – just trying to survive. About trying to find our way out of depression.
I don’t think I’m depressed.
Sure you’re depressed. You’re depressed and I’m depressed. It’s a lively depression, but it’s a depression. We talk about apocalypse all the time.
That’s a sign of life!
That’s a sign of death!
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