Formlessness, hate and death. That’s the world.
The world is a gift of love.
Fuck off! No it isn’t!
It’s a debt. It’s guilt. All life is guilty, right?
It’s enchanted. Sanctified.
It fucking isn’t.
This nihilistic, horrific vision of the world. The return of the horrific repressed.
Formlessness, hate, death, meaning-dearth. That’s what nihilism shows. The horrific vision. Creation stripped to the bone. Stripped down. Naked fucking facticity …
Nihilism can be brought into the heart of religion. That’s the point. That’s what we have to do.
The permanent fucking catastrophe. The fucking revolution. The permanent apocalypse now, right?
Everything’s just dissolving. Everything’s dust and ruins.
General apocalyptic fright.
Creation is not God, right. And it fucking shows. Amorphy. Disintegration. Death, bringing everything to dust.
The abysmal fucking … matrix.
God and the world are antagonistic. They’re counter-principles. Creation is the disaster.
There’s an absolute difference between world and God.
There’s such a thing as a messianic nihilism. That nihilises the world. That shows that the world is not some holy gift. That it doesn’t have some magical hold over us.
There’s a nihilism that empties the world of everything but what it really is. That shows the world as it really is.
It’s messianic disenchantment.
None of this gift bullshit! I hate the gift bullshit!
You can’t just passively accept all this stuff. You have to hate it. None of this communion with the divine stuff.
The horrific vision. The fallen, horrific status of the creaturely world. None of this mystical passive private reconciliation between the created world and God, right? There can be no fucking truce between you and this.
We need negativity! We have to hate things! To negate everything up to a saving catastrophe.
We need dread and fucking ruin. The more negative the world is, the greater the chance for redemption.
We need our hatred. We need to reject all this. Reality – what’s called reality. Which is only worthy of being destroyed.
Everything’s got to sink to its lowest level. It’s got to show it itself as guilty. As wholly culpable. The world is only worthy of being destroyed, right?
That’s a negation too far. It’s Manichean. When does Judaism become Gnosticism?
You can’t praise and glorify all this. The architectonic order of creation, or whatever. You can’t just promote naturalism.
A new form of revelation. That’s what nihilism is.
Perfecting nihilism. Completing it. And that’s when it will happen?
When what happens?
A new opening of meaning. The conversion. That’s what it’s called: conversion.
Work in Progress 